:: Empty Without You ::

EMPTY :: Sunday, November 02, 2008, 00:10

All these pictures you've sent to me, it is still with me. Photos here, but person gone.......
Why......
why it has to be that way?
It still hurts...... my head, my heart.......
I really don't know how long can I hold, I feel like I'm turning insane and I feel like........
taking an eternal rest......
I don't know........
I am feeling like a strong void sucking me into desperation......
Mernel...... how come you still have not visited me.....
or maybe, it is my fault for not receiving you......
if it is the latter, I seek your forgiveness as I don't know how to communicate with you in my dreams......
I'm sorry......
really sorry......
You are really a very good person, but why is this happening........
why......
WHY........
ARGH..................
...............
really cannot stand it..........
..........
please..........
I seek your forgiveness.............
All these while thinking of you........
thinking of your laughter.......
your smile.........
It is a month and 2 days passed........
but........
I still can't take it........
A month and 2 days....... I'll never see you smile again......
A month and 2 days....... I'll never hear you calling me "kor" again.......
A month and 2 days....... I'll never get to hear your voice again.......
A month and 2 days....... I'll never able to scold you, teach you right from wrong......
A month and 2 days....... I'll never be cheered up by you again......
A month and 2 days....... I'll never able to go out with you again........
A month and 2 days....... I'll never able to pick you up from school again.......
A month and 2 days....... I'll never get to play with you again......
A month and 2 days....... I'll never be able to hear advice from you again......
A month and 2 days....... I'll never be able to attend your birthday party again......
A month and 2 days....... I'll never be able to see you happy again......
A month and 2 days....... I'll can never be able to called you.......
A month and 2 days....... I'll never had you wishing me HAPPY BIRTHDAY......
A month and 2 days....... I'll never be able to have dinner and lunch with you......
A month and 2 days....... nobody to sing duet with me......
A month and 2 days....... nobody to practice dance steps with me......
A month and 2 days....... nobody to dance with.......
A month and 2 days....... nobody give the the feelings you've given me......
A month and 2 days....... nobody to nag at me.......
A month and 2 days....... nobody to confide my secrets to.......
A month and 2 days....... nobody watch dramas with me anymore.......
A month and 2 days....... I'll never be able to celebrate your birthday......
A month and 2 days....... nobody ask me what I want for my birthday.......
A month and 2 days....... nobody to help me........
A month and 2 days....... you'll never nugde me and ask me to call you......
A month and 2 days....... nobody to calm me when I'm angry or nervous......
A month and 2 days....... you will never be able to celebrate my birthday with me anymore.......
A month and 2 days....... you're gone.........
and a month and 2 days....... I can't take it.........
Sorry Mernel, if not I've insist on temporary keeping off contact with you for a year to study,
if I had answered your call when you called me in the one year temporary off contact year- this year,
then....... you'll still be here......
you will not be gone.......
It is my fault.......
if only.......
I hope you'll forgive me......
sorry.......

It all ended in a teardrop. Empty