EMPTY :: Saturday, May 29, 2010, 05:09
Lets just hope it ends virtually and does not affect real life.I hope the thing that you and ravin will end soon in virtual. I'll show you that i meant what i say, that i will take care of you and stuff like that. I miss you, yh. I love you. That's what i promise, no matter in real life or virtually.
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EMPTY :: Friday, May 28, 2010, 01:35
The bad days still continues....hope it'll end soon. I'll pray for that.
I'll do what i need to, and what i've promised, to change. I'll show you how much you mean. I hope everything bad will end soon.i don't really like ravin, it's just so unfair that just because he's a hc member, you agreed to be his gf on habbo. Do you know how much pain i felt when you say "my ravinson" and change your motto to his name? That's why i never said anything. I kept quiet the whole while. I don't know what to say....i just find it unfair and unjust. but i'll still do what i've promised you and show you how much you mean to me. i've promised and want to take care of you, yh. i love you, yh. I really do.
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EMPTY :: Thursday, May 27, 2010, 02:28
Of all days this week, i hated today.
Now i'm having insomnia and can't sleep. Guess i'll stay awake the whole night.
The world will never be the same again. It's just so unfair on how things turn out. I've been good, i've done my work, i've done this and i've done that. I've kept all my promises, yet this is the outcome.....i just hope this is a figment of the nightmare i'm having, and i pray for it to leave me soon.it's just so hurting. did you forget what i've told you last august? i confessed, and i made promises to you. i've kept them and always try to deliver what i can. i've done so much, sacrifice a lot for you because it's all worthwhile. but now the situation looks bad, i really hope it'll turn good soon. i've kept all mum in habbo when ravin asked you to be his gf( i hope it's only on habbo). do you know how much it hurts so much just because i lose to him in terms of money? this is just so unfair. he hasn't done much and you agreed to his request on the spot. i don't know what to say anymore but i really love you a lot yh. you've saved my life once, so it's now your choice whether i die or not. i only left with you in this world. i have nothing but you left...
I hope everything will turn out fine.
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EMPTY :: Tuesday, May 25, 2010, 03:30
I don't know if this will be my last post or not. Will have to see how it goes. Hope it'll not be.
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EMPTY :: Monday, May 24, 2010, 01:38
Yep, it's time for me to change after being told, don't worry i will. I'll need to change all my weird habits, just too unconventional for normal people to accept i guess.
So i'll make a promise here: I'll changefor you, yh. I'll do it.
all the bad things that i have right now. Will ditch it away.
Hope you'll give it to me tomorrow.
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EMPTY :: Sunday, May 23, 2010, 01:35
Had a big misunderstanding today.
My English is real bad, i don't even know how to phrase my sentence. Need to learn how to phrase my sentence properly.
Sigh.....
Will learn how to do it, i'll change that, i promise. I really do.
Other than that, it's nothing else besides doing homework.
Need to come to a conclusion soon about school.
Have to give a reply soon.
I've just realised i have caused a lot of misunderstandings just because my sentence wasn't phrased properly and people misunderstood it, ending up causing a big mess.
I'm to be blamed for it. If i had phrased it properly, then things would have been different. No one would get angry.
I need to change, i have to. I got no other choice. I'll change, i promise.I'll do something about it, i promise i'll change. I'm willing to do anything for you, yh cos i love you. I'll show you that i'll change. Need to cos i have no other choice, you're the only one i have left. Fighting my last battle. I'll change all my bad points for you, yh. I promise you that. I love you. Hope i can join you for a game of pool. Even if it's 5 minutes, it'll still be worth it because i want to see you and be with you. Talk to you on habbo tomorrow night.
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EMPTY :: Friday, May 21, 2010, 02:27
What does it take for a person to be original? Having his own thoughts and style? Yea...i think that's it. Just got reminded very nicely that I'm not myself anymore, have been influenced greatly by you. I don't get influenced easily as i have my own principles and view but i guess only you can influence me easily. You know.....
Don't want to reveal too much, just put it briefly here, I don't want the private conversation to be known to public.
Okay, that's about it. I'll find my style and originality back. I promise. I know what I'm supposed to do.I'll change myself for you yh, because i love you.
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EMPTY :: Thursday, May 20, 2010, 01:27
History has decide to repeat itself on me, as always. I know I have responsibility given that I have a gift but seriously I don't even know how to control it so how am I suppose to use it to help? I'm glad I picked my life back few years ago, it made me meet a lot of nice people, but lose some of them. I'm already very grateful for this life again because I've met someone special and I'm not demanding for more.
Losing a friend can be very painful. I lost one of my friend in sec 1. She was one of my best friend i make in sec 1, things happened, she quarreled with another friend and they broke their friendship. Seeing this, I tried my best to talk to individual and hope the friendship will patched back. I did it, but at the cost of losing both of them. It's very painful. I tried my best to help, and it worked but why did I get something bad? I don't want anything in return, I never help people wanting stuff in return but as I always help, I received shit. This just so hurting.
Talked to a friend a few days ago, we're all wondering why good people always receive the short end of the stick while the evil get what they want, isn't it unfair? We do good not to expect anything in return but we ended up receiving something and it's bad. Where's the justice?
I don't lie to comfort people because that's just as awful as insulting them. Some people I'll comfort a bit but I'll do all I can to help the person who is dearest to me. I have good friends, yet they too, receive the short end of the stick every time. I hate this, really hate it. It's painful..... very very painful. It tears my heart to see the person dearest to me suffer. It also pains me to see my friends suffer, but not as pain as the person who is dear to me.
One reason why I hesitated learning how to control and use it well is because I'm afraid. I see some of my kind seen horrible things and they either go insane or they developed phobias, serious one but it doesn't mean I won't try my best to help.
This time round, I've lost another close friend, same situation as before and now the same ending as before. It's so painful....... why I don't even have a chance like others, to patch the friendship back?I've lost almost everything, I hate my aunt for that. I only left you, and I've taken an oath that I'll love you and take care of you. I will do that. Now i finally understand the saying: "Because a man is never as strong as when he is fighting his last battle." Cos I'm currently fighting for my last.... I'll always love you yh. I will. I promise
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EMPTY :: Tuesday, May 18, 2010, 01:23
Just talked to someone about it. Somehow pondering about it right now. Maybe when i got the time and mood then i'll write a well written debate about it.
I can't believe it, i really, really can't believe it. Why must good people suffer so much? Why.......
Okay, ain't feeling that good now. Maybe it's just in my mind. Got to stop thinking and have faith. For you, get well soon. If you need me, I'll be there, I promise.I'd do anything for you because i love you. If you're bored, i'll talk to you. If you're sad, cry out to me, i'll lend a shoulder. If you're feeling angry, vent it on me. If have problem and have no one to talk to, always look for me. I'll always be there for you yh. I'll always do. I love you. (I'll be stronger, for i'm fighting my last battle....)
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EMPTY :: Sunday, May 09, 2010, 01:12
Suddenly feel like blogging.
Today went out till late, actually got choir practice but don't know why some communication problems. So went back and go for my cca.
Shouldn't have went, really. Today was the welcome tea and i hate it a lot, the games they play, everything. At least one consolation is vocal training will start next week. Then after it ended at about 4, i immediately went to some place(can't tell) but because i don't have much time to stay there, i end up leaving quite early too which i think i missed something. Sigh
Oh and for the past few days, i realised i knew little, i have lots to learn and i've learned a lot. I'll continue to learn and understand more so i'll know how and what to do.Looking at your current fb pic, suddenly the feelings intensified, i guess not talking to you for a few days really makes me miss you a lot, now i'm still looking at it. Maybe in an hour i will still be looking at it. imy yh, i really do. ily.
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EMPTY :: Wednesday, May 05, 2010, 02:41
Pretty much a very short blog post. A long and boring day again at lecture. Zzz
I really really hate it.I was hoping i saw you but i know you don't play jubeat in the arcade though the girl REALLY looked like you. Only know her jubeat name is Soonteck. When I saw her, I thought it was you, guess i've been missing you dearly to mistaken someone who like you as you. But who cares, only you, yh, will be the person i care the most. ily and imy yh.
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EMPTY :: Sunday, May 02, 2010, 21:30
Got a temporary com for use while my com is on repair(not once, but many time).
It takes kinda long i know....my com is currently 5 years old and have been giving me a lot of problems. I daresay it has one foot in the grave, nearly rendering it useless and i need to get a new one. My mum told me if my com really cannot make it then she will sponsor me half of the cost.
Anyway, i was very happy yesterday. Lecture was boring though. Everyday after lecture i would always head back home. Many people find it weird but it's not at all. Currently trying to bang into a jc next year.
So, i guess that's it for now. (Initially wrote something but accidentally deleted half of it so re-wrote it but looks different.)Yesterday was very happy cos i talk to you on habbo. I was very happy yesterday(: I will always remember the moments we shared together, like last night, how we hug before saying good night on habbo. I would always love you, yh. ily.
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