EMPTY :: Wednesday, September 30, 2009, 23:15
the clouds once again shone with radiance, an angel, a guardian angel ascended and it's here to protect you, i'll protect you my dear, never forsake you
today left school early to go and attend dear sis 1st death anniversary....stayed there for a while. actually it's supposed to be in the morning but i told her parents to push back till the afternoon, so skipped one period of humanities.
just a few days back, i've heard a stupid rumor, don't know how people managed to make it up though.....they thought i've dated win teng before and we broke off and are patching back again. it's like rofl. i don't even like win teng, so there is no chance i'll love her. i currently love only one person and that person is........nah, not revealing anything, maybe just two words: my dear. go figure out who it is.
to my schoolmates or anyone that knows win teng: we NEVER dated and i'm NOT in love with her or any of that sort(that also applies to the patching back up, which is obviously so UNTRUE).....some people really have too much imagination or they really got nothing better to do to make up this horrible rumors. so what if she's kinda pretty? so what? i don't go for people with looks, it's the feeling that counts. IF i'm a person who go for looks, i'll now either be with some people who looks pretty. but nah, i'm not that type.....for me it's the feelings, not looks or whatsoever and that is why i love my dear so much. i truly love her for who she is. some people tried to ask me to give up, citing lots and of reasons that she's mad or mentally unsound but i still don't care, i don't find her like what some people have said and if you all do think otherwise, then no point trying to persuade me cos i love her for who she is, no matter what happen, i'll never forsake her. she might not be the prettiest, she might not be the smartest but i love her just for who she is. i've said before, it's the imperfection-ism that makes a person perfect.
call me weird or whatever you want but i'm just like that. i'm different.....i look things in a different way and i think differently from others(well most of the time i do think differently) only those who knows me well will know how am i like cos people always mis-interpret who am i.
so yeah, here to clear some air just in case some people might think that whatever they are hearing about me and win teng is true. this rumor is the weirdest one i've ever heard that involved me.
have been missing you for a long time, my dear.......been thinking of you, most of the time i can't sleep cos i'm missing you badly, hope to see you soon. take care my dear, i'll always be by your side. ily
as long as we love truly and bravely, we'll be alright
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EMPTY :: Tuesday, September 29, 2009, 23:04
we always wish for the best, and i do wish that we can be together eternally, ily my dear
finally comp is fixed, now can come online, but need to download back loads of software, i'll just do it slowly...so basically just did nothing, walks and revision at home. to sum up with a word - bored.
oh well, O's are coming soon
tomorrow i'll be very busy, told dear sis parents to delay the ritual for dear sis, till the afternoon as i got school and furthermore, tomorrow is her 1st death anniversary...so yea, will be kinda busy.
that's all for today, catch up next time, ciao~
i'll not forsake you, i promise
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EMPTY :: Tuesday, September 22, 2009, 22:49
a smile in your face warms my heart
just a short post, i'll not be online from tomorrow night till maybe wednesday night as my comp is a little weird, bsod for the very first time. so oh well, i'll do a hard disk check and hope everything will be alright.
you want to know who i call my dear? nah i'm not telling. only she knows as i only call her that(:
imy and ily my dear
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EMPTY :: Saturday, September 19, 2009, 00:23
make it an effort to not let the ones close to you leave
everytime i will be always hoping things turn out right. chance is all i need. whatever i promise you, my dear, i'll keep my promise. i'll be there for you, protecting you and rooting for you. all in the name of love. ily
p.s: i only use the word 'my dear' on one person(:
as the nights goes on, the melody of the moon plays and we dance
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EMPTY :: Sunday, September 13, 2009, 22:59
as i sit under the stars, i began think, and miss you even more
next week is the last week of prelims, seriously have no hope of doing uber well since my a maths and hcl is kinda in trouble. for a maths, there's a glimpse of hope and hcl, i'll have to hope for the best. lets just see of i can pull a feat in my sciences, not including physics of course, which is terrible.
now last minute revision for history after my days of preparations for it, hope to pull it off, at least combine with my ss to get a decent b3. hope i didn't do too bad for my ss. now just blog a bit before going gaga over all my other subjects, so i won't post this coming weekdays.
you're precious, you mean the whole world to me. i'll always be by your side and i love you.ily
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EMPTY :: Friday, September 11, 2009, 22:46
we must be strong no matter what, for there are people who believe in us and support us
yesterday was my latest time going out, went out around 0330h after the 911 anniversary ended, which was at 0312h(according to what some of my friends said).
anyway, later going out again, yea you can say i love the midnight sky, it makes one very calm and i love the sky especially when i can see the moon, if not, the stars. sometimes the clear black sky is enough. together with some music you enjoy listening to, it can be great. thought about lots of stuff too. sat in the playground to think and watch the clear black sky. today going out too, but not too late.
i miss you, looking at the moon reminds me of your face, every second pass and i'm missing you, thinking of you. ily.
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EMPTY :: Tuesday, September 08, 2009, 22:47
if you ever need me, no matter what, i'll be there for you
just heard some songs, the songs are very nice but at the same time, written in a beautiful way. one particular song i like is cry on my shoulder by lengendado. the song goes like this
cry on my shoulder - legendado
If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They are free
But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide
But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
What real love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What love can do
What love can do
this is basically the song, beautiful isn't it?
if given the chance, i'll write my promise on this song and another song although some things happened to you in the past aren't pleasant but still, this song is meaningful enough to write a promise in it.
i'll never leave you
i'll always protect you
i'll always be there for you, keeping you safe and sound.
i'll do anything to not let you get hurt
i'll be your guardian angel
that's my promise to you, you can be assured that i won't break it cos i love you too much, i truly love you.
i love you
i'll love you till eternity, i'll never leave you and i'll always be with you and keep you close
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EMPTY :: Sunday, September 06, 2009, 21:41
in this world, whatever we believe in, it'll be there, just like any word cos there's hope
back, phew......
today was hectic, was busying with a maths questions, basically needs lots of practice on it.
so yeah, other than that, everything is pretty the norm.
and i've said before, words have meaning in them, i only say words if i mean them and i don't usually use some words cos some words have special meaning in them.
maybe i'll talk about meaning of words soon, when i can afford the time to.
for now, i seemed not to have anything to blog already, anyway later to have a walk around midnight to enjoy the night.
i told you before and my words will still be the same no matter what, ily till eternity. you can have trust in me that i'll keep my promise
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EMPTY :: Friday, September 04, 2009, 18:48
'i'll be there' that's my promise
today's a maths was @.@ i didn't know how to do most of the question so i guessed i can't really get good results....even if i want a pass, i'll need to score 90/100 for the second paper. and that means doing a feat. with mr ang teaching me, i don't think i can get full marks for any near there. it's not he's method is lousy or what but i just can't absorb his teaching style. not suited i guess, so i'll need to double the effort and hope that some assistance from mrs. quek will do me good.
oh well, i've decided to do lots of a maths questions from now till my a maths paper 2, seriously need to master all the topics and chapters. guess i'll be going gaga, no choice. O.O
okay, just now in the morning and early afternoon my mood wasn't good. no i'm not pissed but just got affected by some other thing.....yeah, but now i'm feeling better. plan to go to the beach tomorrow and see the sunset. most likely going alone. going to sit there for a long time. some stuff to think about.
lets hope the rest of the papers will be easy. and i just heard the a maths paper was way above standard of o's..... -.-
well done mr. ang, but this is the last time i'll see a grade 9 on my result slip for a maths. yeah, it's not happening again. i'll not allow it to happen.
might be going out later, don't know yet, not really confirm. so yeah.....and i guess next week i'll not be able to blog often till after prelims, then i'll be mia-ing on blogger when it's a week to o's till after o's. guess that's all for today.
things that are precious to you always hold a meaning. for me, your existence is already a meaning for mine
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EMPTY :: Wednesday, September 02, 2009, 21:49
i'm currently unhappy because i'm missing you badly
nothing to post, no mood to in fact, sorry.
when i don't see you, my heart begins to ache, i'm missing you so badly. i love you
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EMPTY :: Tuesday, September 01, 2009, 11:47
words are not spoken for fun, they have meaning in it
now's raining, wonder why it keep raining cats and dogs, make me can't do my early walk. actually it's on some nights but today i have to make it early cos i need to do my revision....zzz hope the rain clouds can disperse soon.
nowadays i love to go to tavistock ave park and sit on the swings there at night. the scenery is good, makes me feel like stopping time and just live at that moment.
guess the truth will be out after o's. lets hope all will be well.
i love you
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