EMPTY :: Thursday, April 02, 2009, 19:51
Thank you Papa.....
you've brought Mr. Lee to tell me check out the new books and make me find the book called "The Shack"
After reading it, I understand why you did all these and why you didn't prevent sis's misfortune.
I know that this is the message you want to tell me.....Thanks for that.
First, you brought Yinghan to help me when you know that the teachers don't understand anything.
Then you brought in Mr. Lee and finally, I've seen your message in the book, what you want to tell me......
I'm sorry for causing so much hurt during that time where the Great Sadness had descended on me.....I hope everyone can and will be able to forgive me......
I will continue to fulfill what you want me to do.........
I hope to continue to spread the message down that you, Papa loves everyone......
even if they are murderers,criminals.....they are still your children and you want to redeem them.
I have stopped thinking about it and since I've gotten your message, I'm feeling lighter.....the Great Sadness has departed........
What you have said is true-there is no love if you force......nowadays law and rules had made people turned evil....they chose independence.....the world has slowly beginning to lose love in their lives....
I hope Your spirit can be with me.....guide me, there is more I need to learn....
I will not use rules and laws anymore......I will love others like they are my friends....even if they have committed a sin or crime because forgiveness is the first step to clear your soul....to start loving people....
Yes...all these may sound too weird....or even impossible to do if anyone of you read it but I'm trusting Papa........
I'll trust him no matter what happens.......
I want his life to help me.....to nurture me.......I hope to be able to live with him....side by side......
The world was created with goodness....there is no evil
Evil is a word coined by humans when they don't receive any good....all negative words are coined by humans.......
there is no noun....only verbs and noun destroys the meaning of the verb, one example is the verb expectancy....it had become a noun-expectation, which completely destroys the meaning of the verb....
Papa....I will live life as supposed......I'm not afraid of loneliness.....maybe someone I do not want to lose.....I want her to accompany me on this journey with you. I'd promise I'll protect at all cost.....
With you around.....nothing is impossible
Impossible is made up of a sentence-I'm possible
So everything is possible......
had lots of thoughts yesterday about loss......too painful to think of it anymore.....
This song truly reflects part of my thought:Everybody's Changing by Keane
You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
Yeah....my thoughts......Thank you once again Papa......and everyone who had helped me.
It all ended in a teardrop. Empty
