EMPTY :: Sunday, May 31, 2009, 03:21
sometimes it's as clear as glass, sometimes as foggy as the mist
8 months had passed.......
1 month and 26 days had passed......
Just now went to the T'ang Quartet performance with rayner, marcus and ben phang.
the performance was quite.....nice I say.
Came home about 12, then online till now, can't sleep....my mind has lots of thoughts running through them....
and yinghan, thank you for everything you've done....not only to me, but others as well. You're such a nice person and nice people always get the rotten side of life while evil people get the good side.....hope that everything in your life will turn for the better cos you don't deserve this kind of "hell's" life.
yinghan, you have done something to someone so important that I can't find ways to thank you enough. You've helped, protect a life......a life full of despair in the past. Those who have you and then lost you wasn't good enough to noticed that. A lifesaver, I can say, thank you. Now troubles are still brewing and I don't want you to worry about my problems......my job is done and I'm ready to leave........help instead to divert and advert all troubles happening to someone and you yourself must take care, because only you can help the someone....and I don't want to risk losing another friend after all you've helped me a lot and someone a lot. Guess it was my past mistakes that is punishing me now, but I'm still hanging on to the little hope left.......
I'm counting on you, yinghan to help the person.....I'm putting all my trust in you. There is nothing I can do because the door's locked. All I can do is to stand aside, pray to hope that no harm falls on the person and that if it does, let it be me to carry it. I'm already bleeding, bleeding profusely and I have little time left.
It still hurts, tears often flowing but I always hold them back. My pillar of support is gone...... I always carried that little hope that you(not you, yh) would consider but your words.....you said before, you didn't even apply them. Yes, maybe to others but not to me. Is it because of that thing that happened? If it is then I'll rather not you knowing anything. Is it a crime to love someone? and could you ever miss someone more than you love them? I don't know. All I know I'm going to prepare everything and after everything is prepared, I'm leaving....so yinghan, help me to continue protecting this young soul, a soul that has took lots of damage. How I wish I could be the one to take the damage but I've run out of option but to ask you to do it, so I'm asking you to be strong, and I'll protect you both in heaven.
Help me watch over her, make her grow into a fine lady and for all of that, I thank you with all my life...
I hope you'll not tell anyone about it if you manage to discover this......thank you
It all ended in a teardrop. Empty
