EMPTY :: Tuesday, June 16, 2009, 16:53
going out this evening....i finally chose it.
meeting with my friends sometime tomorrow....most likely morning
now i know.....never knew it
anyway, going out later.....
and tomorrow? maybe going out, see if it rains or not.
and you know what? somethings are just very peculiar
and never knew.....quite dumb, didn't guess that.
いたい you know?
not to stick but to watch from afar....
got the songs from yh, most of them is very nice....club music
some songs like mirror mirror.....
and cc, you're right after all, didn't see your point that time
wonder why......
maybe i'm quite blind, yes maybe
didn't see quite a lot of things, didn't figure out lots of things, all along it has remained the same, never changed and i thought it changed.
that being said, i had made a fatal error in my judgment
i wonder sometimes...why do people always misunderstand what i've said.
is it because i'm too vague? or some other reasons?
being vague doesn't mean anything though, only leaves people to ponder what i've said.
what could it mean? the atmosphere and environment affects what you're thinking, and ultimately, your answers.
answers to life.....many have ponder but a few got the answer
you see? the environment and atmosphere you're at makes you think differently from others....why is that some people who are from different family thinks the same?
the answer is of course the background(that's what i think), the environment and the atmosphere the two parties are in. Others rely on experience from the past to see what's their goal. i've seen mine from the past that i've all experience, and when people get the answers to their purpose, they always try to follow it.
people are born kind and innocent, but why do some people get into committing crimes and stuffs like that? the environment they are in. the environment and experiences they had shaped them, just like how you shape a piece of modeling clay. your mind is like a modeling clay, the environment and the situation are the masters, the one who shaped the clay. whatever we are facing, sometimes our minds are soft, allowing it to be shaped, while sometimes the things we'd experienced had shaped us to an extent that the clay has hardened. that means that no matter how the environment changes, it wouldn't affect our mindset.
giving examples of "hardcore" people....those are people whose clay had hardened. we speak of criminals, some of the repent while others continue to commit the same crime even after they have been released. but usually, it's the society's fault for not giving them a chance. if the society doesn't discriminate someone else background, then there wouldn't be a need for the yellow ribbon project. true or not?
the society has changed a lot from the past.....it has become one of the hardest place to go to as you'll be condemned for the mistakes you've made. God once said before: forgive everyone because we're humans, to err is human, what matters most is that we change. God loves everyone, no matter they are criminals or good citizen, they will always be loved by God. why can't we all do that? because we are too prejudiced against others. everyone wants love, everyone wants care, but nowadays, people are getting too selfish to give loves to others. if the society had a little bit more love, then there wouldn't need for PDA( public affection display).
we ought to forgive people, to forgive them is to learn how to move on, we do make mistakes and often want others to forgive us. it works the same way, not carrying grudges frees our heart, like what frees mine. In the past i used to grumble a lot on why i don't have a wonderful and loving parents, but now i just accept it the way it was, God put me in this to let me learn something, and not to grumble so much on the loss i had. at least i still have some wonderful friends out there who are always there for me no matter how dark my road is. there is one person there who no matter what happens, there to pick me up. not only the person had picked me up before, she had pick another friend up who, i'm grateful for. it's hard to have someone like her to come by who helped others. most importantly, she saved a soul before, maybe before me, or after me, i leave for you all to decide. my main point is such a friend is hard to come by and no matter what, we must try to learn something from here: people come in to our lives to teach us something, those that teach valuable lessons are the one who will stick by you and tell you, sometimes dropping hints here and there. valuable lessons are always long, that's the reason why they are here to slowly guide us. and you know what? friends are there to also give you hints to your purpose in life. no one but you yourself is able to deduce it and friends are just there to give you a starting, some helped you all the way, that's why you see some people's bond become very tight. they remain as friends for a long time, some for their lifetime. sometime we meet the people who will give us or hints, and the some enter our lives too early, therefore no hints being dropped and they left, only after sometime had passed do you see them again. at that point of time, you can be sure it is the right time and you'll not regret it.
we live only one life, a handful live their lives in the wrong motive, why, because they didn't meet the ones that they are supposed to meet.
so you see? friends are important, very important in our lives and to be treasured, that's why i treasure my friends a lot even if i don't have a wonderful family. i also treasure my family because no matter how bad they may be, they are still my family. only by tapping into our feelings are we able to see the world. do not connect to the world, but connect with the people, why? the world is an evil place. you see people falling into the hand of greed and problems came along, there is poverty in the world and little are people doing anything about it. are we becoming more and more selfish? that one you'll have to give the answers to yourself as everyone answer's different.
globalisation leads to pollution, our earth are being destroyed. can you see people's greed?
greediness pays a price, like what mistakes do. everything has it's own price and i can't believe people are doing this.....what's the point of being so technological advanced when we know that we're not going to survive in the world that is supposed to be technological advanced because it's going to be destroyed?
can't believe i'm finding my shadows back, sometimes it's great to be back as a philosophical person and help others to ponder on issue they never think of.
got to go now....and such long post for the first time of this year, there are a few questions to ponder about. do it if you're reading it, maybe it'll help you someway or another.
tomorrow's going to be a long and tough day, need to go out today to plan......and hope it'll be fruitful.
It all ended in a teardrop. Empty
