EMPTY :: Sunday, October 11, 2009, 22:24
we choose where we want to end up in life, life's a journey full of ups and downs and we decide on the path we want
didn't want to blog today but oh well, suddenly itching for a little post here.
i did say i'll blog about once a week or so? but oh well, everyone sometimes have the urge to change some stuff.
yesterday i made a difficult decision. i thought it will change something, but it didn't. i thought by providing some knocks, some clarity will be formed but it didn't, too shrouded by fog of war i guess. oh well, i chose my path, i made the decision out of goodwill but i can't seemed to provide clarity without hurting a fly. i know the outcome, i gave my permission and i'm willing to accept all punishment dealt out for the sake of providing some clarity to clear the fog of war. i was trying to help out bring the finely initiated thoughts of goodwill of another punished being yet the fog of war amplified, never once did it cease to exist. i have only myself to blame that i could not help in any single sense, instead i messed things up. sometimes i wondered, isn't there a simple way to speak the thoughts of others without hurting a fly? must i really become that harsh? i don't wanna be the bad guy but sometimes it just seemed impossible to always be the good guy. why is this so? i don't wanna see those that are like glass to be broken and not being able to fix back itself. i guess i'll have no choice but to leave it to God. hope that things will come to light soon. i really hate sacrificing myself for nothing, leaving everything to where it were before. i'll rather agathusia, at least something is gained with the loss of something. it's really makes me drop a tear to see how harsh the world can get, that's why i abhor reality. lets hope things will turn out fine and the ones being misunderstood to be understood finally even if past events that happened was sour and bitter. it'll be worth my sacrifices.cheryl, i hope you do get what i'm trying to say....i did that because i want you to realise that yh meant good all the while, she's hinting to you something. sit down and think and you'll realise that all along you have misunderstood her, she's the misunderstood one, not you. we both don't judge. it's you yourself that judge people. we wish you well, hope you'll understand, understand that all along she meant well. if you do understand, then all my sacrifices are worthwhile as i know that we pretty much can't be friends anymore though i hope we still can.
do not be driven by hate and anger for it shrouds one's vision and gives the wrong sense of direction and thoughts
It all ended in a teardrop. Empty
